How goes the struggle? It’s a question we asked each other towards the end of my Bible school year. The idea was that we will always be fighting against sin this side of heaven and it is helpful to acknowledge the existence of that struggle. We like to avoid struggle and I find myself thinking that when I’m a super Christian there will be no struggle. It will be a joy to spring out of bed at 5am, pour over God’s word, pray for hours on my knees and then go for a 5K run.
But I think struggling is actually a sign of health. To cease to struggle does not mean perfection; it means I’ve become complacent, more concerned about my creature comfort than growing into the image of Jesus Christ.
For me it starts with little things that become habits that become major stumbling blocks. Two big ones for me are sleep and food. When my brain recognizes that morning has come and that it would be conducive to my physical and spiritual health to get up rather than roll over I don’t even think twice. I roll over. There is no struggle involved. No questions asked. My body wants to sleep therefore I will keep sleeping.
This morning I realized there’s a word for that. Disobedience. I am a disobedient daughter. Day after day I choose to not struggle in the little things at the expense of spiritual maturity, humility and godly character. What a trade off that is so not worth it.
Oh God cause me to change.