This quote has been in my head these past few days as I kept finding myself not enjoying wherever I was or whatever I was doing. I kept thinking to what was ahead rather than enjoying the present. I am pretty sure it’s a chronic problem for me. Always living in the yet to come rather than fully embracing the right now. At it’s height it’s pure agitation and lack of focus. No wonder there’s little joy in the present sometimes!
Looking back on the canoe trip I’m a little sad. We had wonderful weather, great kids and an excellent speaker but only once did I stop to breathe in the beauty. Most of my focus was ‘at the end of this lake’, ‘at the end of this portage’, ‘at the end of this week.’
"Prone to wander, Lord, I feel it…"
Especially in my mind. Not necessarily to sinful thoughts as much as either to empty thoughts or busy ‘what next’ thoughts. My ‘quiet time’ is no exception. So in the past couple days I’ve been trying to just ‘enjoy God.’ It’s hard.
So this week as I meet with the ISCF leadership for the first time this year, go to the first practice with a new GIFT team and officially begin the 3 1/2 month stint of counsellor/coordinator at the small Christian school here, I want to be all there. Physically, mentally and spiritually. By God’s grace.
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